One thing has been on my mind a lot for the past month or so. I don’t know what to do. I have one idea, but I don’t think I could ever carry it out and I keep making myself doubt it so it may never happen. I’m unsure of my thoughts right now. It takes seconds, one little work to make me angry and I don’t want to feel this way anymore.  Nobody understands me, or quite frankly cares. I’ll just let everything play out and see where it takes me. That may not be the best option, but I don’t really know what else to do.

I think I need to get out of all this and be free. I’ve been held down for so long and I want a chance to go out and do whatever I want. There are doubts when I feel this way though. I just can’t seem to make up my mind.

I can’t change them though. Everything confuses me sometimes. One little thing sets everything else in motion and I sit here thinking to myself “what am I doing?” I wonder where I’m going with my life. Idk what to do. I feel like I need to focus more on myself and my future but I seem to not care these days. As school is ending, I realize that I need to change myself and get ready for the future. 

The plus of it all is that hopefully I can get a somewhat fresh start. I’m kinda tired of everything and I wouldn’t mind letting it all go. I don’t want to need anything but myself. Forget everything else.